Leering Satyrs;

2007-10-02T21:59:00.000-07:00

2007-10-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

She said, She said, She said:
"Why don't You just drop dead"

ooh really? My fault? You sure?
Why did all this even start in the first place.
Get the answer,no? Oh oh,why not you ask me.
Yes yes,ask me quick!
Rather than you hear things from someone who actually thought negatively of you too.
Someone who agreed with me and in fact,made me convinced you're like that.
Now,you're suddenly close to her.
Surprise surprise! :O
Hah,how gullible.
Tired of these? You're not the only one,honey.
I'm tired too, so goodbye.

2007-09-29T22:34:00.000-07:00

I thought this is such a pretty pictuor, all hail the camerawoman <3!

I think life's pretty fair now.It's such a felicity spending time with cousins.The beatitude of having Eugenia to talk to and all.The sense of euphoria i got everytime i bumped into the babe at school.Though i have to admit,behind every bliss there's bound to be affliction. My friendship with someone is getting more and more disreputabled,hah.

k goodbye.

2007-09-25T21:26:00.000-07:00

The sweet Hello, the sad Goodbye.
Friday the 5th


I don't know much about you, but I pretty sure I wanna be with you
I haven't got a clue what is wrong, what is right, what is left to do
I read a magazine
I watch a TV-screen
I dive into a dream only to find me in love with you
 You make my head go pop pop pop  every time you're around

2007-09-22T23:26:00.001-07:00

Kid for sale, Kid for sale (!!!)

Too cool for sale (:

Randomosity

idris step bagus je

Mak Ayah (hahahaha!) Coupleyyy luh :D

Zahraa da rockaaaaa

CRISPY

Again (:

2007-09-22T22:20:00.000-07:00

Whispers,"Hello,I miss You quite terribly"

I feel like a part of me died without my hp, I want it back back back.
I'm so crazy for Someone who i'm missing alot. Damn, i just need my freaking hp back!
There's supposed to be a call that i've been waiting for to get,but how the hell is that Someone gonna call me!
I miss You so much,i swear swear swear.You even appeared in my dream,and i freaking love the dream rly
I WANT TO CRY I JUST WANT MY HP BACK PLEASEEEE
It's a wonder why the ppl who're leaving me soon appeared in my dream all at one shot

2007-09-21T07:46:00.000-07:00

Oh,I'd be so proud to call you my Girl

I feel like a Madfuck! Mommy please be good and give my phone back! D:
How the hell is that darling gonna call me tmr without my phone in my posession.
AIYA SHIT AH IM SO ANGSTY I WANT MY PHONE BACK!!!
5th October is too soon,i dont like this omfg.
I srsly wanna talk to that darling i rly rly rly rly want to ):
BUT HOWWWW MY PHONE NOT WITH ME D:<

2007-09-20T17:36:00.000-07:00

Figures A and B (means You and Me)

My new found yet unknown allergy is annoyingly torturing me
I'm gonna make Nasuha jealous cos i saw our Commonwealth candyman(again) (:
Had study date with Fadhill-ah yesterday
There's gonna be a sec2 YMC break fasting tgt day,shld i go?
I want to drag someone and break fast at Geylang/Haig Road but i dont know who to
Tuition with prettypretty later (:
I'm ecstatically high cos my phone's functioning back<3>

2007-09-19T18:56:00.000-07:00

Pop Prince(ss),walk with me
Pop Prince(ss),hold my hand
Pop Prince(ss),don't let go

I didn't sleep yesterday,wowza baby!
I'm not gg for Hiatus,just will be posting in bullet forms
I now officially hate Mosquitoes /:
I'm still fickled about hml next yr,bodoh betul!
Hopefully two more yrs,and i'm out of all these shitz
Pop Prince(ss)
SHEESH, my hp's going bonkers! It refuses to switch on OMFG WTH! D:
HOW TO TEXT LIKE THIS!!!! GRRRRRRR D:<
ntg more,so goodday!

2007-09-17T20:00:00.000-07:00

StrawHearts and Loveletters<3!
You’re so obsessive.

Today:

· I hate it when She made me cry at school
· I don’t like the feeling of being stuck to decide stg
· I want to do it, but Her words pierced me real bad
· I need someone to console and tell me what to do
· Damn,i hate this!

Yesterday:
· I think i’m too early for Hari Raya Craze.
· I’m in the mood for loveletters.
· I’ll be giving guess-who one.Jealous? ((:
· I have this sudden urge to cut my hair.
· I find Gula Baby extremely funny and mushy.
· I spent my weekends mugging :O :D
· I’ve been listening to bollywood songs lately.
· I think school’s getting more boring.
· I’m changing,atleast i do realise it.

2007-09-15T01:04:00.000-07:00

&How You're the Best thing in my world
<3!

2007-09-13T17:27:00.000-07:00

P/S : DARL,I LOVE YOU

I'd give it all up for you
(I'd give it all up for you)
Do anything you asked me to
(Anything you asked me to)
And like a pillow we can hold on to
Cause we got each other
(We got each other)

When the hard times confront me
you always show me that you care
and i believe you are my rescue
when i see you right there
youre the best thing i have and we got each other

Lessons ytd were very laid back.How rare! But oh well,shitty day damnit i swear i felt so suay ytd.Many things happened.Okay fine,strike off dikir training.Dikir training was the only thing i appreciate for ytd.I still cannot believe that i shld consider dropping higher malay next year ohmygosh! I'm still as shattered as how i was ytd upon hearing her words.I mean like,not to brag,but i know my higher malay isn't horrendous.I maintained my grade since last year and managed to move up for this year.Should i listen to her opinion or follow my intuition?
AIYA,SHEESH LA /: WHY LIFE SO UNFAIR AHHHHH!

ANYWAY HAPPY FASTING :D

2007-09-12T16:05:00.000-07:00

There's something about the way you look tonight
Maybe it's the way that i get nervous when you're around

And i want you to be mine;
If you need a reason why:
It's in the way that you move me,
And the way that you ~~tease me~~ ;
The way that i want you tonight.
It's in the way that you hold me ;
And the way that you know me,
When i cant find the right words to say...
Can you feel it in the way

Hello,i'm freaking sleepy yet i'm still awake.I want t burn midnight oil but i dont think i will ha ha ha.So once i'm done with this i'm gonna crash my bed! (okay so what if it's 11:56 PM only hurhurr!) I'm admiring Hilary Duff's brunette photos.Yes yes,i'm sleepy but stilllllll she's freaking pretty ohmygosh!

Anw yehp,didnt rly went out with the girls ytd.Opted out myself halfway through.Town-ed with Guess-Who for a short while though, and i bumped into my freaking cousin zomg zomg zomg(!!)

I'm catching up with Zul again now. It's been months since we last talked and stuffs.I dont know why but i suddenly miss ppl like Zul(Mr Awesome) ,Nazryn(Bestie) ,Mattias(Sugarpie) and Fahmy Fahmy Fahmy!! (Abang:D) plus believe it or not, Fauzan the RI Glory Rugger yoyoyo! The only girl i miss now is Sak! Okay thats a lie,there's always another one.Dont ask who,Just go and guess who (:

GOODBYE.

2007-09-10T16:01:00.001-07:00

You got me LOVESTONED.

It sets me thinking & wondering so much why certain stuffs occurred.How in the first place,it isn't true but slowly with the magic touch/words of selfish and low inferential skilled humans (do they even deserve to be called this?),it gradually transforms into a rumour and eventually presents the victim with a rage so angsty.HAH,screw those of you.I'm more than annoyed about the fact that i couldn't get hold of the names who did all these.It might seem to be any usual trivial matter but no,it isn't.I mean come on,which loser isn't a loser when she spreads sth around without even knowing the truth.Dont make assumptions.Dont try to infer.You dont know me well so seal the mouth up.

Outing later with Guess-Who and the girls.I'm not gonna elaborate too much about it later.Some people ahhh,just cannot see me happy la what a suckaaaa /:

GOODDAY! ANGSTY KID AH SORREH IF TONE OF POST SOUND LIKE SHITZZZZ.NOT MY FAULT K,THAT LOSER'S FAULT GRR GRR.

2007-09-09T20:36:00.000-07:00

I write Love letters like a kiss in the night;

Hello,I adore you
Hello,I admire you
Hello,I like you
Hello,I love you

I got a heart with your name on it, name on it
I got a love, I got a love, I got a love for you
I got a heart; put your claim on it, claim on it
This heart will, this heart will beat for you
If you want it to,Honey

Alright thousands of apologies for not updating teehee.I'm a busy buzzing bee you see.So recaps,recaps,recaps yeah :D

Teachers Day Celebration was rather fine.I realised i didnt eat fruits for so long! After that, Vivo-ed,Clarke Quay-ed and trained home with Guess-Who((: Not elaborating heehee.

Holiday was busy and hectic,yet Lovely.My hp keeps me happy and dreamyyyy.Anyway Sak Baby,do ring me soon.We need to catch up yaww.Love you lrt babe(:

GOODDAY(:

"Ure so fine,u blow tt person's mind.It could be an obsession"
hahaha sorry,i love doing this you seeeee :D

2007-08-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

I was bloghopping and damn girl,that post was for me wowza :O I got nothing to say,but please dont freaking assume wtvr that happened out of your intuition.Cause frankly speaking,your intuition sucks to the freaking core damnit.Yes,our friendship is going down the drain,but eff it man do you even realise all this happen eversince that soul appeared in our lives.I shld stop swearing rly man.

On hindside, texting the lovely babe has been making my everyday happy and gay.Thanks love!

2007-08-21T17:27:00.000-07:00

Life is such a crazy thing,
it's never really what it seems,
cause first we were chilling,
now I'm catching feelings
can you tell me what this means?
I'm going through my voicemail,
And I'm saving every message you sent
I'm trying to read between the lines,
to see if there was something I missed.

I really love your company,
Hate it when you gotta leave
another oppurtunity,
for me to say everything.
So tell me if i'm bugging,
when you look at me like that(like that).
I wanna say something,
but I dont know how you're gonna react.

Whats happening to me?Gahh.On the other hand,i purchased 2 pencils frm liy. For you,__<3! Hafiz's birthday is tmr.Egodude,egodude (hahaha)

2007-08-20T07:03:00.001-07:00

To feel your touch,Honey<3!

Sec4s got no school on wednesday and thursday,how annoying.Tsk man,tsk! Shamita,please come down to school and bring H along too (: (hahaha) She admits,she'll miss me for the two days she wont be at school.Teehee,and of course i'll miss you too babe!

MATH TEST IS OH-MY-GOD(!!!!!!!!)

2007-08-19T06:27:00.000-07:00

In my Crazy Love, i see You in it <3!

Tdy was a mentally-drained day for me.Spent half the day mugging for math common test.Had 5 lovely hours with pretty tutor (Idris,go away hahaha) Apart from the hectic day,i love the people who make me happy.Hazie's da best,da best,da best.Dont worry nasuha,you're still one of my top people(:

Anyway,national day rally speech by PM is good.Wah sey,incentives are prioritisely given for those who takes up malay special programme or chinese special programme.2 bonus points,mind you!

Oh,i bumped into lrt friend tdy(!) Omfg,i miss that bitch! And Gl Bby,stop apologising for the other day.I'm fine with it yeah.

Gdnight! I got better things to do,like mugging while stuffing myself with Twisties and texting the lovely person too<3!

2007-08-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's love,sweetheart

I went for tuition ytd,and boy! it's so goooood .As usual,i <3! my pretty tutor! Da bomb,da bomb(!) She told me ghost stories of my school that happened during her time.Wah sey,hot stories! Maybe,just maybe i could snap my tutor's picture one fine day.Pretty pretty ex-crescentian ah puhlease.She could be my secret eyecandy.K joking ah nasuha hehehe :D

I've yet to text H,boohoooo ):

Oh did i mention that i can foresee my sister Shazana,will grow up into a pretty bitch? Hahaha.Any takers?Lol! Digressing from that,tomorrow's gonna be love<3!

GOODBYE.

2007-08-16T17:47:00.000-07:00

I got you babe
I got you babe
I got you babe
I got you babe

I swear lessons tdy are quite a bore.I've been feeling fatigue the whole day.Irks me so much.My whole body system was basically down tdy,i felt really uncomfortable.Speaking of which,i think i got food poisoning cause my stomach has been giving me problems lately.I've been dashing in and out of toilet at home yesterday.Like i said,it's possible that i got food poisoning.I thought of not coming to school,but yep i still did cos well,some stuffs you see(: I miss seeing people -inserts suitable grin- If really it's food poisoning that's making me feel so sick,i gotta say this is the worst one throughout my whole life.Throbbing headache since just now morning,as though the world's twirling around me.Even Jing Yi says i looked pale and ill tdy.I feel so pathetic cause i cant seem to concentrate on anything(!!!)

On the other hand,life at home is good,beyond good.I'm delighted that mommy has been good to me.When i say good,i mean extremely good.She tells me stories of the schoolkids she taught. (I know i mentioned this before) She was telling me how corrupted this little boy she taught is.That little boy was so corrupted by the SPD show. (SPD's a sorta power ranger kinda show) The word power ranger relates much violence.Which explains and suggests that that boy is violent.Really violent.Pretty scary yknow,To make things worse,the parent thinks their child is always right.Bleargh,annoying people.

Digressing from that,I've got so many math related stuffs tomorrow omfg.Extra lessons after school,followed by math intensive tuition.*Dies*.
My headache's killing me,so goodbye!

2007-08-16T07:12:00.000-07:00

Burn the night; Break another heart

Love lies, youre just a victim of the headlines
Youre running on into a cold night
Youre just a number of the love lies

Somehow i felt my previous post is kinda brutal in a way.Oh Well,dont bother reading it again.I'm really over it,i hope.I'm managing it fast.Cos I've got 5 people close at heart to keep me happy: H,Gula Baby,Fishy Sis and lastly,Fahmy.I'm doing fine.With the rate things are going at home,i'll be good mhmm.Mommy shared with me her stories of the little kids she taught at school.Darn cute,zomg *hyperventilates* (Abit ironic to my mood,i know)

As usual i texted H and told her the stories mommy told me.I said the kids were damn cute,and she replied she's cuter -.- Right babe,rrightttttt.Told ya already i got people close at heart with me.For now,Best is of course, H<3!

2007-08-15T17:58:00.000-07:00

But strangely I wish secretly;

How are we gonna let go of something that's gone
Ain't it funny how a broken heart just keeps hanging on,baby
You don't want to hurt me so you play along
And it don't feel right, and it don't feel wrong
You watched me walk away
And I set you free

With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Yes,Baby it's true i'm over you.Oh,you were the one who didnt treat me right cause i would stay up at night just thinking when you come home and you didnt even make sure to call my phone.Baby,you made me bad.Oh Baby,you didnt know what you had.It's true i'm over you.I wont go back for anything you wanna do,Baby.Its done,you had enough of your fun.You better leave me alone cause i'm not gonna answer the phone.Oh,I'm over.S0 over, i'm wont go tripping for you cause Baby thats just isnt what i plan to do.Baby,I'm so over you.

On Hindside,I'm managing it.Thanks to the awesome company at msn and text.Namely:Gula Baby,Rez,Nam,Nasuha and yes,the lovely babe (: Alright,i hope i'll rmmbr to text H later before her O's.So long people,gotta run.

2007-08-14T20:13:00.000-07:00

You're my number one baby, and you come to rock my world

You got me feening and you got me feeling weak
Listen as I speak cos I'm careful as I creep
You got me going crazy and you know I can't sleep
No fortune your moves and you hypnotise me
You got me trembling like a little baby girl
You're so special, you're like diamonds and pearls
You got me spinning and you got me in a twirl
You're my number one baby, and you come to rock my world

Hotness psssssssst.
Psssst,darling,pssssssssst.
I found that somewhere.Freaking hot! Whip in the butt yoh!

Elearning's screwed.But i just love waking up late so it's okay! I know G block's like a haunted block hahaha.So silent,sec2s disappeared! And i know H misses me awwwww coolshit sak.

2007-08-13T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hello,I think You're freaking sweet,darling(:
Can i put you in my tea? *winks*

Tdy went out pretty good i guess.Though i felt really tired but yep,day went rather well thank god.Spot Check was bullshit,Recess was spent eating and mugging for Science,Lessons were pretty slackening and laid back.Science Common Test was manageable yay hey hey.Headed down to CCAB to watch hockey semi-finals with Aliffah.Supposed to watch rugby semi-finals at Yishun JC but yeh change of mind.So anyway,cabbed there,met the rest.Crescent Hockey won.Ate with Nasuha at Mr Prata Shop and missed every part of the game,thanks ah woman.Saw Gula Baby,lollipops for her and Nam.Head back home.Cabbed again to redhill with Aliffah and Fadilah.

H couldn't come with me to watch the match. Sheesh darling,sheesh!
There's no school for me tmr and Wednesday.
Honey,do miss me cus I'll miss you <3!

Goodbye.

2007-08-12T07:45:00.001-07:00

Will someone please say i got Sexyback with me?
<3! Hot Baby,Hot (!!!!!!!)

Went M'sia,got bubble gum for myself and Miss Scandal.
Say cheeese! (:

2007-08-11T06:55:00.000-07:00

Dearest Syahirah,

Hey back to you Gf,(yes,i'm not used to this too)
We drifted apart no doubt about that.Again,i'm truly sorry alright Honey.I'll try my best to make up all the times that we lost just cos we drifted.I seriously miss you no doubt about that.I miss the times when we hyperventilate at random stuffs.I miss the times when i go down your class just to meet and have a talk with you.I miss going to their match with you and yes,distracting you.I miss walking back to G block after every higher malay lesson.Oh god,do you know i miss you so much?We shouldnt have drifted.Why must things and people change?Sighs.I promise you we'll have an outing soon okay.Love you girlfie.Hugs and kisses<3!

On the other hand,thanks sugarpie and applepie(insidejoke) for tdy! (:

Hello World,I miss H alot.And ooh,Nice to know you,Gula Baby! ((:

2007-08-10T22:52:00.000-07:00

Hello Honey,How've you been doing without me?
Not fine,i hope.Cos,I'm not you see.
Say Honey,please date me.
I'll shower you lotsa kisses,promise.
So is it a deal Baby?

ROFL.I find the convo up there extremely mushy.I'm still laughing hoho! So anyway,forgive me cus i've been using name codings lately.I'm very prone to name codings you see.It seems so cool somehow to me.(TEEHEE)

I miss listening to Imran Ajmain's songs.
I miss playing the playground.
I miss watching Hi-5 and dancing to the songs.
I miss my primary school clique.
I miss waking up early,getting ready to go school.
I miss the gossip sessions with Iman and Fadhil.
I miss quarelling with Ahmad and Jamal.
I miss the times when Nasuha and me have a really nice talk.
I miss going to school,seeing bitches everywhere in the train.
I miss talking to Adilah very much.
I miss the scandal i had with LRT friend.
I miss going to school(4days holiday only)cos i want to see Hazie very badly.
I miss the good times i have with Baby.

Sighs,life's so complicated.

2007-08-10T21:52:00.000-07:00

"Come Honey,come be my Scandal"

Srsly,i'd rather be at school now.I'm not surviving well enough at home,rotting yknow.The feeling sorta suck the hell outta me. I think She changed alot,wth is wrong with you babe.Get your facts right,i'm sorry to say this but i think you're really blind.What's so Wow about that soul.Really,i dont see anything so Wow about that soul.You're pretty,get yourself a better one.Dont retreat,dont ever really.I dont want to see you suffer at the end of the day.I dont want to see you regretting,yet again.I dont want you to go back to that old times.Tell yourself to look away from that soul.You have to,it's not your choice.Dont look for trouble when it isnt meant for you.I'm disappointed,prove me wrong will you?

I want school,school,school (!!!) I pretty much wanna meet my Scandy<3! ,plus friends of course. Ytd's night movie was nice,pretty sad actually.Scandy happened to be watching the same show as me.It ended at 1am yoh! Out of all texts ytd night,i find this very very amusing. (Points to the topmost bold words)

<3!

2007-08-09T06:11:00.000-07:00

I miss Trisha Baby! Talk to me soon,darling.On the other hand,I'd rather be at school.I wanna meet my Scandy (: Smile,Honey<3!

Bila kita bersama
Mesranya berbicara
Hilang getar di dada
Saling terpesona
Namun tak bermakna ku cinta

Bila kita bersua
Kau buat ku selesa
Wajah manis dan ceria
Kita saling teruja
Namun tak bermakna ku cinta

2007-08-08T02:53:00.000-07:00

I'm a happy kid cos I like tdy! Or rather,cos I love tdy!
TEEEHEEEEEE.

National day celebration at school was alright.Very lively, no doubt about that.But i prefer last year's to this year's.I swear Red spells Hotsex.The whole auditorium looks so freaking hot. (Crescentians are hot hot hot creatures what! ahemahem) I saw H with her (ahem again,rather cute) hair! So anyway, my class wore our class jersey(ultimate hotstuff okay!) plus this white cloth which acts as a skirt,somewhat around there.Looks so pretty together<3! And yes,as expected we screamed our lungs and heads off like for almost everything.Teehee,i'm going to miss singing community songs with 2g3`07 yaww D:

After celebration,supposedly to have math remedial.But it got cancelled(!!!!) -grins widely- So,Filzah,Farah,Diyanah,Asyikin,Falee,Aru,Christina and myself went to cwp to eat pizza pizza hut hut.The queue was so long,i swear! Texted H as usual,and found out that she's also heading to cwp.How great! Ate this cheese-dont-know-what food.Yummy yum :D After i finished eating,I left the rest and met up with H and Sham.Hang out with them,talked talked and talked.Oh,i think H smacks very hard.Tsk,i'm such a poor thing haha.They showed me their pictures.They took quite alot of them man.After sometime,headed home with Sham.And she tricked me ohmygoodness! Unfair okay,unfair i tell you.Shh shhhh

2007-08-07T08:14:00.000-07:00

I'll send loveletters from the Hallway of Heaven.


No flowers to send now 'cause this is the end;
This is the end now I've seen it all before

I havent talk to Fahmy for so long (!!)
Ooh H,ooh <3!

2007-08-06T19:36:00.000-07:00

I swear she's such a bitch.Thanks for spoiling my day,so much for hoping everything will be good tdy.Fuck you slut.Damnit,i want my stuff back alright! Grr grr.Nevermind,i shall contain my anger.Angsty angsty angsty(!!) I wanna talk to H later and rant and rant and rant.She's my lady love you see.Bee is forever unseen.Oh well i cant be bothered.Lit CT later.No comments.

Sometimes your life isn't going too well.Sometimes it reads like a postcard from hell .I've made my mistakes, I suppose you can tell.Some lives read like a postcard,And some lives read like a book.I'll be happy if mine doesn't read like a joke, from an old Christmas cracker.

You've been around for such a long time now.Oh maybe I could leave you but I don't know how.And why should I be lonely every night when I can be with you.Oh yes you make it right.And I don't listen to the guys who say that you're bad for me and I should turn you away cos they don't know about us and they've never heard of love.

Love.Yucks,please?

2007-08-05T07:17:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Ahmad (Victoria) :D

I just tend to love this friend more.Jealous?
I'm Happy to see you again.I'm happy cos you're a girl's best friend.I love it when you get real close.But I don't smile so no-one knows,that I'm happy just to be next to you.And I love the way you do the things you do.And it doesn't have to be so hard to get happy when love's in charge.And I'm happy, I'm feeling really free.And I'm not satisfied with misery.I'm happy that you can make me smile.And I'm happy that you're there.Oh pretty please,I'm so happy.Cos H,You're so sweet plus lovely.How can i ever resist this? (Cheycheychey) I repeat,I said I'm H A P P P P Y.Believe me,no? ((((:

I swear H's the bomb now.Thanks for lifting my mood up.I owe you for that.

2007-08-04T23:49:00.000-07:00

Cos i like you.

In this world,there are bound to be some things that irks you so much.Sometimes when people tease you,they meant it as a joke.But sometimes when people tease you,you can sense what it means.You can sense that you are being belittled.You can sense that they mean it,but tried to cover it up as a joke.Sometimes you just have to draw a borderline across your words.You have to get your limits clear.You cant expect people to understand that you're forever joking.In simple words,i'm sick and tired of taking cover-up jokes anymore.I felt demoralised,really.Thanks,no?Heck.I wanted to cry so badly just now.I wanted to run off the room so badly just now.But no i didnt.I held it back.I held it back.I held it back.I'm sorry,but i really dont fancy people who gives me this kind of shits.You can never know if i'm angry at you,cos i have my happy face on you.I dont fancy people who underestimate me.No matter how much you think you know me well,you still dont know me fully yet.So kindly please,stop underestimating me.I'm no little kid,who can just eat your cover-up jokes up.

On a lighter note,i think my new friend is nice.Trisha's the name.
H,i feel like ranting to you about someone.Grr grr.

2007-08-03T22:08:00.000-07:00

For all we know,time fly so fast.

Today was a rather balanced day.Math test was bullshit,cos apparently i know i wont be able to score.Damnit.Lessons went on as usual 'cept for English.Had some serious class talk with JS.Wtvr she said,i haveta admit are all true.My heart sank on the spot.I could see JS disappointment through her eyes.I almost teared but i decided to hold it back.For all wrong that I did to You,I sincerely apologise.I'm so sorry,really.All of us were required to write our opinions of the whole situation at a piece of paper.I wrote quite a long one.And i have this very strong feeling that JS will cry after she read all 40 of it.Damn,this is so emotional.

Peacehaven equates to Love,enough said.

Crashed town after that with sarah,eugene and syikin.Had so much fun there.Mirror image Mirror image(!!) I love the company tdy(:

I didnt text H at school tdy and i heard that she complaint to Sham abt that.Sham even texted me, telling me to text H (hahaha) But apparently,Sham texted to my old number hawhaw.Aww so sad teeheee.H always make me feel so loved.Love that babe la sey.

H: Haha yeah going out of school.Why? What did you do? Klah,I miss you ah.
S: Chey H,baru satu hari tak text you,dah miss me.Mcm mane ni? Haha.

2007-08-03T17:25:00.000-07:00

Course of Life; S-A-P-P-Y

It has been long since i last had a proper talk with You.Yes,i miss you alot. (A girl btw).I'm glad we managed to talk yesterday.You know you have me anytime,any moment.Raise up your chin, my dear.And forget all those things you fear.For I am with you now and forever,to guide you in your life's endeavors.It tears my heart to know how you are now.If ever you need to talk,i'm always just a call away,not a problem.I'll always be there,promise.Just chin up asap!

I'm having this sappy paffy feeling yesterday as well as today.God,i've no idea how to phrase myself.Sometimes i really wonder,attacking my mind, asking why am i like this.I want to better,no doubt.School wise,i have one thing to face,and it's heavy.If i dont perform well for fye,i'll get kicked out.Fuck,i dont want this.Ergh,i love Crescent too much.The Crescent spirit keeps me alive each and every day.How am i supposed to fucking adapt to a new school.This is madness,i dont want to fail(!) My parents are being pessimistic of me.It dampens my spirit of striving hard.It agitates me so much,it tears me like hell.They're not supporting me,i feel like a really sore loser.

To cover this up,i tried to become more open to people.Tried to become more friendly.Cos i can never know if this will really be my last year.I seriously dont want to go.My one and a half or so year in Crescent has moulded me into a better person.I've experienced more rocky adventures in the course of life at Crescent.It taught me so much things.I've yet to experience the rest.

I dont like wtvr i'm feeling now.It just suck the hell out of me.Bee is out of reach,i'm extremely irritated.I guess i know who to go to when i'm down now(besides God,that is) Hah! i have such a nice life.Not bad,not bad /:

Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away

2007-08-02T19:27:00.000-07:00

There's a part of me seeking and desperately needing to open up.That's strange cause I'm an open book, a confused girl.I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people.My heart while in its cage,give and not receive a thing.But the only funny thing is that I don't know how to give myself advice. I've got this post dramatic thing.With that, I've got to learn to live and dream before I go and get myself in love.True,no?

Tag replies:
Adilah; Well yeah,life's just like that.Nice to see you at my tagboard(:
Idris; Mhmm youre very much welcomed.
Aliffah; Hello back to you!
IMAN; yeah i know she can uhh(:
Hafidz; haha yeah you linked me already yeap.

2007-07-31T19:04:00.001-07:00

Rain, rain, rain (!)

You're my favourite friend.And I adore you and will Love you to the end.No one heard a word you say cos you're my only favourite friend.We'll rule the world together,with our secret codes and plans we can't remember.From now on,We must be strong cos you're My favourite friend.When I need you,and when I don't as well.Of course you'll miss me being around cos forever i'll say You're my favourite friend.

Have you ever wondered why is it that you're giving attention to the wrong person? Have you ever wondered why is it that you got your priorities all jumbled up? Have you ever wondered why is it that things aren't going the way it's supposed to be? Bingo! Maybe you did ever wonder all these.In fact,perhaps you even know the answer why.And undeniably the worst answer will be that, you yourself is the cause of all this.Abit disturbing mhmm.Oh well,fuck it.

I got (two) detentions to serve.Wowza!

On hindside,i'm going home with The Babes again teeheeee :D And tmr's the first month yoh! (:

2007-07-31T08:30:00.000-07:00

The Boy is shy; the boy is shy.

Yknow today i feel like some little schoolmate in a little schoolyard.I'm quite ecstatic today in a sense.Plus a little cuckoo too teeheeee :D School's superbly great today, for that i'm a happy kid mhmm.Crescent Dance sold cookies today and boy, were the cookies so delicious! Like yummy yummy uhuh! (: Lessons were mostly alright.Assembly was student forum.Okay i like Student Forum somehow.Kinda cool actually yeap.

After school,went home and did usual stuffs.Got ready for religious class.Today's class kinda hilarious too.The girls were talking about our elementary school guy friends.Tsk,typical typical heh heh.Texted the usual person.Like i said earlier i was a little cuckoo today.Thus,causing all my texts to be sorta sound retarded in a way heeheeee.I like the awak-awak & saya-saya part the most.In simple words,i think today went rather alright.Good day i thought! (:

I'm going home with the two babes again tmr yay hey.I'm beat, so goodnight(!!)

2007-07-31T07:51:00.000-07:00

How do i breathe?

I swear wtvr's happening at home is killing me softly day by day.I dont wish to pull long faces infront of you two.I know i'm not a good child.I hardly carry out my duties and responsibilities as a child,the eldest one.With that,i'm terribly sorry.I really am.Sometimes,i feel ignorant of to what's revolving around me.I know I suck.Yes,i do realise.But come on,you haveta throw away the doubts you have of me and let me prove to you that i can fucking do this.I'm sorry,but i'm really disappointed over your words to me just now.Yes,i admit i do change.More of to negatively change.Contrary to this,you haveta also remind yourself that behind every evil, there's good.Dont you wish to see the good? Dont you? I'll let this be unanswered.

Geog common test was manageable.I'm a happy kid for that.Ended around 240pm.Stayed back a little while more till approximately around 4 to complete some malay stuffs.Then,met up with Hazie and Shamita.Went home together with them.And now,i'm here feeling like a shitassified bitch diligently doing my work in such a troubled piece of mind.Damnit.

2007-07-30T22:08:00.000-07:00

Delicious;

Exams are so nearing time already and yet i dont get a single shit about Macbeth.It annoys me so much alright.I kept on hearing "Act One,Scene 4".It's been countless times of her saying that.Grr grr.To complete that,she's exceptionally not her usual form today.Simplistically,she's a weird example of mankind i guess.Apart from that,I'm getting the chills for geog test which will happen later.Rubbing that in,i hate mondays and thursdays morning train ride (!!!)

On HIndside,Today's isn't a bad day so mhmm i'm feeling rather good.And oh,Hazie claims she can dance(!).Haha,i wonder if it's true.Hazie dancing? Come on man,i'm rolling on the floor yawww :D I guess i shall just wait for the day then teehee.During morning assembly,the principal talked to us about the school's academic pursuit.I felt affected cos apparently,i AM affected anyway.Plus,i feel inspired somehow after listening to her somewhat Speech.I think i shall talk less and do more.Only then will i get to enjoy the juices of life after certain sacrifices i suppose.Heh heh

Alright,gotta flee now.Macbeth's on show in class.What a bore!

2007-07-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

Crazylove;

And i dont like this feeling that's haunting me all the while.This feeling that makes me feel so insecure,so unprotected,so corrupted.I thought perhaps doing something else could erase that feeling i've been having.And just when that thought was almost being granted,something else crops up and worsen the situation.When can this ever end, i always thought.Got an answer,but pretty vague ones got dumped off.So,it goes on without actions,without saying.

I feel so loved today.

You had me suicidal says:
tumbletots love ya lots(:

94****66:
yup yup sure.love you too woman!

and there's more lah ofcourse((:

Countdown:4 days
[1st 1st 1st (!!!!)]

2007-07-28T03:36:00.000-07:00

When everything's meant t be broken;

I went on my knees.And in the dim lighted room,I let my thoughts free to flow cos somewhat or rather, i thought i could try to consume myself in this.No,i'm not faithless but just paranoid of getting lost or that i might lose something or someone.People say,Ignorance is bliss,Cherish it.And then you'll realise around this pretty neighbourhoods you have learnt much to hold.No matter what the outcome there's this thinking that sets and works in the believe-it-not way.They say chin up and fight the tears.Cos with pretty smiles and lies,you'll survive the never-ending lies of life about the times that never pass by.

Biatch.

2007-07-28T01:49:00.001-07:00

Found this at Nad's blog.
I find it rather impressive and true.
Here goes.

Just when you think you've had more than enough, something else crops up and adds to the collection. Just when you think you can't do anything worse, you do something that hurts even more. And just when you think you have someone to share the sorrow with, you screw that up too and you're left to fend for yourself. The worst part of it is that you know it's all your fault.

and the collision of your kiss, that made it so hard. syazwan says:
you sound like a blonde bimbo

Syazwan's damn mean yawwww D:

Hello,i miss You gilercinta!

2007-07-27T05:36:00.000-07:00

Recaps recaps recaps(!!)

Thursday:
School as per normal,the usuals happen.Heh,exams coming real soon.Lessons have gotta be sure kinda mundane in a sense.Well,what to do right.Just obey and execute out what we're supposed to do i guess.Be positive,positive,positive (: After school supposed to come down for Matt's match,but i felt kinda lazy plus the weather's sulking real terribly yawww.So,i decided to go home.Went home with Hazie and her other friend.

Friday(also knows as today) :
School ended early.But it doesnt seem early cos i haveta wait for nasuha to finish her class.Had lunch with Hazie and Syidah.Met them at Lido's macs and saw so many crescentians there :O And guess who i saw there! Out of so many ppl,i saw Sahail(!) with someone.Tsk Sahail,tsk haha.& i wanted to go home with Hazie okay(!!!) butbutBut! Nasuha dragged me away from Lido.I'm a sad sad sad kid yawww D: Hazie and syidah went to window shop at Lido and Wisma if im not wrong.So in the end i went home DDD:

&& oh! someone's afraid of cats too!

2007-07-25T07:15:00.001-07:00

I'm gonna get You
Don't You worry about that.

Holla Holla :D
I think i'm falling in <3 with Shania Twain's songs.
Pretty old school (but wtvr)
Mommy got me hook onto her songs rawrs!

School has been pretty good (atleast to me)
Kinda weird (i repeat: atleast to me) that i'm giving my 100% concentration during lessons.
WOWZA :O

Especially science,i haveta specially mention this subject(!!)
I think Faraday Lab's my good luck charm for Science yaww :D
Whenever we have lessons there, i'm one hell of a science enthusiast.
I'm loving each and every Wednesday
(though there's art to dread for /:)
So contradicting my personality i know (Shuttup ah)
HAHAHA i think brackets are the latest cute thing teeheeee.

AMC is so redundant i so swear okay!
I slept halfway through the paper.
Last five questions i just insert any number hawhaw
I'm not the only one who did that
So phew me,phewww (:

Oh ever heard of the term 'traincandy' ?
hahaha i never did till today.
Hazie introduced the word to me.
She was smsing me saying she saw her traincandy(?!)
o.0"

okay bye imma go to Sugarpie's match tmr.
Going home with him too.
I got stuffs to rant to him!
I'm beat,so goodnight! (:

2007-07-22T19:38:00.000-07:00

So,tell me.Tell me.
Will You be my Valentine.
Now,~~hear~~ me.Hear me.
I'll be Your best Secretlie.
Adi,I'd go crazy for You.
Do You even rea-lise?

i'll perhaps be meeting idris later.
Or maybe i'll go for library instead.
tick tack toe.

WEAK SAUCE!

2007-07-21T08:35:00.000-07:00

Pembahas Crescent menang di hati,bukan untuk nama <3!

It's okay we're winners at heart.

We're proud of you girls!

HIP-HIP HOORAY(:

i gave Hazie flower today

Daisy okay,daisy!

Now i want a flower too.

Someone kindly buy for me pls.

TEEHEE

After that went to Tamp mall to have dinner.

ate at long johns with Iman & Naz

Bumped with the debaters at macs.

Then home.

now i'm alone.

Family's at m'sia grrr.

BYE! :D

2007-07-19T21:03:00.000-07:00

(hahaha) i think the pictuor up there's darn cutey mygoodness!
Anyway,today's kinda good in a way.
2g3`07 performed a skit for the skit competition.
& yes,i'm the tree hawhaw.
All in all,i guess the skit turned out pretty well(:
I know some seniors snapped pictuors,tsk.
I got a really clear view of what some seniors wore.
Pretty,actually not pretty.More of to Awesomely pretty.
I saw what Adilah and her clan wore.
SARIIIIIIII. (mostly what the sec 4s wore)

i think pythagoras theorem's a cool topic haha!

TMR'S BAHAS!!
cheywah,aku excited ahhh.

2007-07-18T17:53:00.001-07:00

Sahail cracks me up on msn.
tsk that gay dude (hahaha)
Bahas coming sooon!
(I'm egg-cited yawww!)

i'm going to match later.
I wonder if i'll see Fahmy.
Ytd's convo with him was a tad bit random.
& he gave me his number damnit.
I didnt know he's their coach!
BYE! :D

updates later

2007-07-16T20:08:00.000-07:00

Hello, my handphone just got confiscated.
Fuck.

2007-07-15T21:11:00.000-07:00

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Right and right & Wrong and Wrong

2007-07-15T10:50:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was really really such an awezsome day!

Ymc launch turned out awesomely g-r-e-a-t.Everything was executed out well 'cept for one bit where it appeared to be a little screwed.But Oh Wells,Overall it summed up to be a wonderful happening event.I'm proud of every single one of us who had contributed to the launch in one way or another.

Food was rather simple,yet so yummy(: (sticks out tongue) Somehow,i fell in love with the backstage room(: Sec3s facis were great,but the sec4s facis were the bombz! Jaye and Kikin totally shook the room! We had macho,sexy,mat and minah claps ((: Iffah got to know me,finally. (hahaha) I think Irshah/Irshad/Irsyad looks darn familiar to me.Zuliandi has such prominent cheek bones man,and Nabil (haha) reminds me of Ashraf Sinclair!

Ice Breakers and the Interactive session was GREAT! Scavenger hunt was hilarious! The grouped that i took charged of emerged as the Winner (hawhaw) :D

All and all,i'm very sure that every single one of us had such a good day.And of course not forgetting to mention,i think we,the sec2s ymc-clubbers did sucha wonderful job.Say Yay! Even abg akmal said if he were to rate our efforts which made this whole event a success,he would have given us an 'A' grade.

Pictuors up soon! (:

CONGRATS PEMBAHAS CRESCENT `07
MAJU,MAJU,MAJU

and Congrats Hazie for cliching the pembahas terbaik award.
You totally deserve it babe.
*Huggsss (:*

2007-07-15T00:11:00.000-07:00

2007-07-12T21:50:00.001-07:00

good old times (:

learning to write love letters in english lesson is beyond coolness ha-ha!
met someone yesterday.
Fullstop.
& i dont think im going for Matt's match later.
So far!

BYE! :D

2007-07-10T19:23:00.000-07:00

im leading a hell of a busy week
Ive been coming home late for the whole of this week.
(Wan's not yet here in class,so i'm blogging heh hehh:D)

Yesterday went to the rugby match with Shi Chen,
since Matt asked me to watch.
Funnehshiat that woman hawhaw.
Damn spastic, please oh please!

okay later i have:
math remedial
pbmc audition
and and and okay thats all i think

BYE! :D

2007-07-08T19:11:00.002-07:00

Pictures up!
teeheeeee(:
Go to the bottom first alright

Rose(:

Again

Haziratul,last speaker.Damn pro(:

Best speaker seyyy

Superstar! Superstar! haha

Amira,third speaker

debate luh debate

And again

Again

Hani,second speaker

Rgs Debaters

Rabiatul the first speaker

All pumped up

Crescent Debaters (:

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Affair Affair (!!!!) :P

iman drying her shoes

2007-07-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

I sense something terribly Wrong.
I know something's not right.
i'm panicking like crazy.

Bee,
Where'd You go? D:

2007-07-07T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hello(:

Today was great to a certain extent and lousy to a certain extent too!
ROARRRR.

Went for Bahas.
They look pretty pretty pretty(:
I saw a Superstar who came into the lecture hall late!
and i swear she moved seats like zoomzoom!

Crescent Bahas Team was totally Awesome okay!
I swear they're so much better than the opposing team.
The judges are so goddamn bloooody irritating.GRR.
Like Fadilah said,"Fuck biasness"

I'll upload the pictuors soon,pretty soon.
Went for lunch and yeah haha sth happened.
I shall not go into detail here(:

Ymc was rahhhhh,nothing much.
Well,at the end of the day i got involved in another task.
So now,i'm involved in ice-breaker and the skit.
There's full-dress rehearsal this monday at 7pm.
Say WOW!
*faints*

anyway anyway hahahaha i think the word Bee is cuter than the word Baby.
(:
BYE!

2007-07-05T17:41:00.000-07:00

My Secretlove :D

I'm not in school today.
I'm sick sick sick like forever.Urgh!
Anyway like shitz okay,there's ymc tmr!
The rehearsal's tmr., not the full one though.
I'm dead doomed doomed doomed /:
How to meet Bee! omg la.

And oh,haha my mommy took my phone away for today.
But nvm,i'll get it back tmr.
I hope she doesnt open my inbox.
Aiya,i think she alrd suspects i got sth on.
And she didnt say anth,so i shall remain silent.
Oh and one of my cousins got to know abt Bee alrd.
Cos she read my text messages.
Oh Well, atleast she wont leak it out or wtv.
I can trust her(:

2007-07-01T18:49:00.000-07:00

okay hello i am a damn happy happy happy happy kid yesterday night.
And i still am today.
Bee,You're too Woahsome i love You like *AHHHHH*

hahaha i'm madly in love, spread the love yawwwww.

You're a shelter in the storm
Keepin' me away from harm
You're a song with beautiful words
Something that I never heard

okay BYE! TEEHEEEEE :D

shichen/ You found out about what? tell me okay!
AM/ Hello! (((:
Haziq/Yaww hello to you too.
Joyce/ Who is ___?
Fadilah/Hello minah!
nasuha/Hahaha why cant i?

I love Bee <3!

2007-06-30T23:38:00.000-07:00

Hello

I love my Bee (:
Enough said.

Yesterday was fun.
Went with Nasuha and Sabrina.
Met sya and bestie there.
Too bad Bee couldn't come.

I saw Di,Feena and Lena there!
Their performance are so Awesomez i tell you!
And i am deeply in love with the dikir.
They're so good i must say.

And i saw some of the ymc seniors there.
hahaha someone look dashing.
Right,cia? haha!

2007-06-28T23:29:00.000-07:00

Hello :D

I've been chatting alot with Ahmad lately.
Not the Ahmad from VS but the RI guy instead.
okay he's a nice person to talk to.
hahaha we moved on alot luh please and it's super quick.
Plus,we're sms-ing too.
(:

Anyway anyway,
I miss Matt la shit seyyyy /:

and i found this love quote:
Love is like war,
Easy to begin but hard to end.

2007-06-27T22:43:00.000-07:00

Hello world,

school's today is like (ha-ha-ha) damn lame -.-
cos there's pbl luhhhhh D:
Oh,I'm intending to send sth to berita harian!
Dont laugh okay,i really wanna send it.
Cos later,those who send their stuffs to the berita harian will all meet tgt :D
haha i have no idea why i'm enthusiastic over this :X

okay bye!
Patrick didnt come t school today! (Grr)

2007-06-25T20:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday marks the end of the school holidays.
Say Yay! and Uh-oh! /:

Went to sch with bestie.
tralalala saw alot of people on the way.
School was as slack as possible.
I felt damn stress free.
Like way more than the feeling i got after exams.
The weather was like woooo,cooling mmhmm.

Higher Malay's the Best!
Crapped like Heavenly loads.

Ooh,Someone spoilt my day.
Right in the morning at the parade sq.
Damn You!
You dont need to talk bad about me in ur language,
cos like Damn! I know what ure saying.
Yknow,i could have recorded whatever You said.
I know I'm not such an angel.
I do admit, at times i made mistakes that i myself dont even realise.
C'mon man,I'm a Human.
Bound to make mistakes alright.
But please,Do have your limits.
I know i appear to be like so goddamn oblivious to wtv you said.
But omagad,Stop it! Just stop it!
Cos it's so sickening for me to keep on tolerating Your damn nonsense.
It's so agitating for me to pretend that i dont know You're talking abt me.
I mean like seriously,
Did i find fault with You?
No,i didnt alright.
So,what's Your damn shitassified problem.
Eff off please,oh please!

Adilah called yesterday.
And we talked about XXXXXXX
Heh hoo,uh-oh!

2007-06-24T00:33:00.000-07:00

I suddenly miss my paternal cousins.
We didnt go out for any outing this holiday,PFFT!

Anyway,
Young Minds was fun yesterday.
Went there with Awesome Company: Nasuha&Iman

Got released at around 540pm.
Met up with Sugarpie&Bestie at Braddell station.
Took the train,went back home tgt.

Cos i want to have a really true love,
Never will have to give You up.
Forever and Ever,
We could be Playmates and keep LoveSecrets

(:

2007-06-20T21:02:00.000-07:00

I'm gg to acsi on friday friday friday!
anyone wanna follow?
I'm gonna drag my girlfie along hohoho!
The ruggers got match luh,
and Sugarpie asked me to go.
So,i'm going.

anyway,
life's too good to be described now.
I'm loving it,baybeh!

:D

I don’t like little annoying kiddo brats.
They don’t know how to wait for luch.
They’re asking me to cook, so impatient.
I wanna talk online right,bodoh sey!
Only know how to complain!
Go and masak sendiri la,wth only.

2007-06-19T20:49:00.000-07:00

Sugarpie,Youre my euphoria.

Hello Bloggie,
I'm a Happy Kid (:

I quote Sugarpie,
"Haha no problem.Lets put it this way
You are more important than myself being happy."

:D

ANDAND!
Sugarpie has the same msn nick as me.
Cos I'm his Sugarpie too (:
(Refer to upmost sentence)
<3!

BYE! :D

2007-06-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

You had me at Hello

I know i haven't been blogging for like days already.
Well,I'm lazy thats why :X

Anyway,I love my virtual msn life.
Alot of reasons to this.
:D

Oh!
Matt messaged me saying he's back from Perth.
Hello Matt,I miss you like aww.
Hello Naz,I miss you like aww too.

Social's life going great,
but life at home is like urgh.
Mommy wanted to confiscate my hp ytd.
She came back home from work and moodswinged,please oh please.
It annoys me so much.

And she thinks i have a boyfriend now and tells daddy that i'm having one now.
Yeah right,I dont freaking have one boyfie now please
So stop annoying me with rubbish suspicions.
And yes,dont take my privacy away.PFFT.

I miss Matt,Naz,Haziq,Girlfie and Adilah!
(:

2007-06-13T19:43:00.000-07:00

haha okay i'm a happy kid for god knows what reason.
i made quite a number of new friends lately.
lets see:
Zul(acsi),Naz(acsi),Matt(acsi),Haziq(vs),Hafidz(vs),Sarah(mgs)

okay haha i only remember their names.
still got somemore.

on hindside,
i'm pretty much worried for someone after reading her blog.
I dont know whats happening in her life lately.
and after reading that part,i teared abit cos i know something's not right.
the tagboard tells all.
Dearest pretty lady,we have to catch up on stuffs.
I miss you.

talking about missing people,
I miss Mr Awesome (hahaha)
:D

2007-06-11T18:42:00.000-07:00

Bila hatiku sudah sayang;
Bukan mudah untukku lupakan.

Yesterday was bad,
the worst out of any incident this year.
I quarreled with Bestie,yes that guy.
(Don't ask who.For me to know,for you to find out)
I actually can bring alot of stuffs into this blog.
But i shall not,cos it involves someone's dignity inside.

I cried alot when we quarreled.
Cos we're quarreling over sth that shouldn't have happened.
I'm sorry,but I'm so sick and tired of giving in everytime and everything to ---
But yet,I'm still giving in.Why Oh Why!
I also dont get it why i'd rather see other ppl happy
than to make myself happy.
The feeling just suck the hell out of me.

The quarrel shouldn't have even happened.
Cos bestie's leaving.
And yesterday,
I was lying on my bed thinking hard about what happened.
And my aunt happened to come into my room silently
and she suddenly ask,"apasal muke cramp?ok tak?Macam frust aje"
I gave her a plain smile and denied.
So she went away with a nod in her head.

Then,later at night.
Mommy suddenly asked why I'm so different that night.
She asked if it's because of Rizal. (urgh,out of so many ppl HIM /:)
I gave her this kinda (-.-) look and said no.
So,what does this shows?
I'll let you be the judge.

Bestie,I hate you but i just cant hate you.
I love you and I hate you.
Cos loathe and lust work together.
I dont knw what to say,what to do.
Looking at the card thats meant for you just make me cry.
And the best part is,i cant bring myself to see you.
Hati saya telah dirobek-robek.

I've listened to so many malay songs lately.
And the ones that i listened to yesterday,
the lyrics are all talking about whats happening.
Urgh,get me out of this hell please.

2007-06-10T01:44:00.000-07:00

Andainya ditafsir terserlah makna yang tersembunyi
Semakin berputik perasaan ini
Air mata menjadi saksinya

Yesterday went all bad 'cept for the talking part with Nasuha.
AND OH SHIT I CRACKED MY TPC'S SPEAKER!!!
Night was worse as I broke down cos of something.
Only one person knows about this and i hope you hold on to your words please.
Actually,i've never broke down about matters concerning that ever before.
Maybe once,but it hardly have tears involving my sleeping time.
I was exceptionally emotionally sensitive yesterday,at night to be more specific.

I'm confused,stuck and i have this feeling of self-guilty.
I dont know if what i'm doing is right.
I dont know if i should tell You the answers to Your qsns ytd.
serba salah.
But this huge part of me is telling me to give in.
On the other hand,the small part of me is bugging me to let myself win.
This is irritating,i cannot think!(yesterday)
Then,i made up my mind.
I saw sth somewhere,and my heart sank.
I knew i hafta give in.Heh
Nasuha! Whats happening to me! D:

But i still rmmbr this msn nick i had a few days back ago,
which bestie and me made tgt:
I dare to lie,just to secretly love
It's in between the lines,it resembles my life.
I dont make random nicks,i make relevant ones.

ok i feel like crap.urgh
I want to talk to someone but i dont know who to.
Actually there would be someone who i can talk to,
but we're talking no more.
At times,i just wish we could bring the old days back.
But it's mostly impossible cos of you know what.
If only i have the guts to perfect things out.Heh

On a lighter note,i have school tmr(!!!!!!)
*flashes smile*

2007-06-06T23:38:00.001-07:00

Drive me up the hallway of secretly loving You

Today is boringggg-g!
Cos Mr Awesome isnt online at all.
i wanna talk la D:

so yesterday was yet another typical holi-day.
Every other day's almost the same.
'Cept for stuffs that came in my life lately and (hopefully) will stay :D
Ah,I am a happy kid.See me SMILE :D :D :D :D
Someone knows why,ahemahem haha.

I remembered I was talking to Zul online,
and he suddenly went offline. Like poof!
I was shattered,please oh please (haha)
Cos I know he need to go and he just went off without saying bye or wtv.
Shattered,okay Shattered.
Then a few mintues later,
Zul appeared online again.
But by then,i haveta go already.
When i was about to sign out,He opened convo.
Apologising cos he suddenly went offline teeeheeee :D

Then we both signed out,heh heh.
Approximately around an hour later,
I switched on my phone andandAND i realised Zul the Awesome sms-ed me.
hahaha,i am shocked like some woah.
Then,we continued sms-ing each other till about 10 pm.
and we did the same thing again like on msn.
Wished each other goodnight,
and went to sleep at the same time.
SAY YAY ZUL'S NICE :D
it seems like i've known him for so long but actually,He's just a new friend.

oh,and me and Naz were like cracking our brains ytd trying to find emo-love nicks tgt hahaha.
nutty ppl oopzxs.

okay and I MISS NASUHA LAAAAA D:
come back soon,okay lovely sister
i got thousand of things to tell you.

I GOT ALOT TO BLOG OKAY
BUT NVM,I KEEP IT TO MYSELF :D
and cia the gf,haha i'm gatal?
maybe i am.But must be cos You passed them to me hahahaha :D

2007-06-06T22:02:00.000-07:00

/edit
Baby you got what I need
Try to sleep I haven't slept, try to eat I forget
Shit where's your number hope that's the one I kept
Now we just met and I suspect I might just love you
Well you can bet I'm mad thinkin of you, don't want to trouble you

Song lyrics (:

edit//
haha little kids are such brats i so swear.
their friendship conflicts are so damn lame.
I swear like screaming some sense up into their head.

Went online early today.
talked and crapped with Naz.
He came out with this quote,
"i draw hearts to feel love" Cool right!
hahaha,he's gg nuts.
We've been talking abt ppl falling in love lately,
plus ppl breaking up and all.
Andandand ppl not abling to get the one who he/she loves cos that person loves another person.
Love,it's a complicated game. heh

Then,he went offline.
Zul came online (:
Hahaha,this guy is so hilarious i swear.

my lil cuzn stepping pandai cakap english.
terketar-ketar dia nak cakap,nonsense betul! lol.

i cant wait to fall in love with You.

2007-06-06T01:23:00.000-07:00

edit/
hahaha i swear Zul's damn ahhhhhh(:
So everything nice.hahaha
I asked him if he will sleep the time i ask him to?
and he said yes,and Well,he really did.
Aww,he's Awesome i tell you.
New friend,You're cool. Dingin ah,dingin :D

The cute thing is that he did wtv i ask him to.
Like to move from his living room to his bed in the bedroom.
Then,wished goodnight and signed out tgt.
hahaha cute acsi dude.
chey,jgn kembang eh :D

edit//
haha i found a new nice friend.
The name's Hafizul.
And we talked till past midnight.
Cool or cool?

anyway,i know i'm a good person la Zul.
:D

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
im trying not to be

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
and ppl like ehem kinda encourage some more

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta says:
ehem?

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta says:
u got gf eh?

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
no lah

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
as in

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
ehem = YOU!

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
haha

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
relax

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta says:
haha who?

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta says:
me?

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
haha you

hafizul - haiz...its so tough says:
yes

2007-06-04T20:31:00.000-07:00

5 June `07

i swear i was so bored throughout the whole of yesterday.
Thanky god,there's Nazryn online.
So,We both crapped like no one's business.
TEEHEEHEEEE :D

I don't like MuhdNazryn cos he plays sarcasms with me D:
LOL!

haha,and i made a song out of his name.
See,i'm too bored i tell you.
And he admitted I'm pro.
Chey cheyyy :D

6/4/2007	4:30:39 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	eh ahahaha see ah
6/4/2007	4:30:52 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	sing this song to the satu satu tune
6/4/2007	4:30:58 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	satu,satu Nazryn is a fool. Dua,dua dia suka bully boohoo Tigatiga,dia seorang penipu.Satu dua tiga,Nazryn selalu tersipu-sipu. :D
6/4/2007	4:31:10 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	im too bored i came out with a song
6/4/2007	4:31:14 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	pro or what?
6/4/2007	4:31:15 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	:D
6/4/2007	4:31:23 PM	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	haha, yeah
6/4/2007	4:31:27 PM	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	pro, pro
6/4/2007	4:31:36 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	Chey thank you thank you
6/4/2007	4:31:41 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	-bows vigorously
6/4/2007	4:31:42 PM	Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta	nazryn ; kau tercipta untukku (:	hahaha

2007-06-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

Cikgu Norliza's Wedding.
hahaha,idiots who camwhore :D

let the words speak for themselves.

2007-05-23T19:05:00.000-07:00

Pop! goes the Heart.

Teringat ku teringat
Pada janjiMu ku terikat
Hanya sekejap ku berdiri
Kulakukan sepenuh hati
Peduli ku peduli
Siang dan malam yang berganti
Sedihku ini tak ada arti
Jika Kaulah sandaran hati
Kaulah sandaran hati
Sandaran hati

Now,i'm beginning to feel guilty.
everything's going the wrong way.
erps.
I miss the old times.
I miss You and the other You.
It's useless coming online anymore.
Cos We're not talking.
It's useless waiting for late phonecalls,
cos it's never You but another soul.

so,tell me.
what's happening.

I'm sorry i cant lie.
I want time to reverse itself back.
The good,old times.
Pretty please.

2007-05-23T17:26:00.000-07:00

For everything You do,i'll turn to You

Masih di fikiran
Pertama mata bertemu
Di hati terasa
Oh debaran cinta

Keayuan wajahmu
Merdunya suara
Kini tinggal oh kenangan
Hingga ke akhirnya

So I didn't come to school today uh huh.
Woke up as usual only to realise i have an omfgoodnessly throbbing headache.
Once i stood up,my head went spinning like there's no end.
Once i walked,i walked like some drunkard (according to mommy)
So,since i'm unwell i didn't come to school.
But yeap,i do realise that i missed the peacehaven trip as well as two freaking periods of higher malay (!!!)
How sad,aye ):
And now i have no absolute idea why the doc wrapped my head.
I look like some person experiencing uhm,comma? Heh.
and mommy has been calling up more than thrice today.
Rawrs,why are they so worried.It's just an effing headache man.
I.can.take.care.of.myself.

Plus,i wanted to go out so badly to go and uhm,watch the rugby match.
it's between acsi and uwc,under14 cdivision.
boohoo,so much for being sick.
My immune system's kinda weak this year,no idea why though.

okay 25th is coming,i need a company of a babe and a dude.
I think i know who to ask for.
anyway i'm missing so many people.
aww,coolshitzzz.
Anyway,i heard acjc's gonna have a production soon?
i feel like going for this one.
But it seems so uhm,longgggg )):
alright nvm nvm,
and ooh,Patrick my dumbass is back in Singapore from s h o p p i n g. -.-

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Clad your guards,Arm your Heart

2007-05-20T21:51:00.000-07:00

hahaha okay so i'm back to blogger since i'm pissed at livejournal.
All the layouts doesnt seem to attract me in any way.
How sad ):
Okay moving on,
i think nazryn is crazy in the head (hahaha)
He said he wants to kill his brother sometimes.
Insane dude la that one.
Oh well,understandable.
Acsi dude what. Cheyyy.

Haha,ok i'll post soon.
anyway i got 2 cute pictures.HEE.

MAKE LOVE UNDER UMBRELLA

2007-05-07T06:27:00.000-07:00

history stabbed,murdered me.
AYE!!!
livejournal's done.'cept for the skin have yet to be upgraded.
For now it's cute boxes.
I wonder why there isnt any circles.AH,ADORABLES x)

okay so get from me my url alright.
if you know me well you'll know where to find me.

Url has sth gt to do with my new email.Go figure.
actually that new email is just like extra account.
I'll officially use it when I think everything has retuned to normal.

maybe this is my last post here.
i'm leaving blogger,omg how sad.
but aye,i wont leave the taggieboard yeap (:

Selengkap mana aku mahu,makin bersurai ia menjadi.

2007-05-05T22:13:00.000-07:00

From now onwards,i.am.an.emokid.
Don't anyone come to me and ask if i'm okay.
Cos it's freaking obvious i'm not.
And i shall not post anth long from now on.

I.got.no.life.k.thanks.

/edit
you know what
i think i'm moving to livejournal soon.
yeap,ask me for my webby if you wanna know.

Cos I wont shine,If You dont shine.

2007-05-05T04:24:00.000-07:00

Siapakah ~~si cantik rupawan~~;

[edit]

IMANNNN,AKU GERAM LA SIAK SEH.

saya masih tak puas hati.
Hati ini tak tenteram,awak faham tak?
saya geram giler macam kepala nak putos.
Kenapalah hidop penuh dgn asam garam
Leceh to the max, aku tak suke!
Tak cool langsung,ada faham?
Tarik balik lidah awak la cepat.

Dalam cahaya dikau menjelma
Kau hilang dalam gembira
Membuatkan ku terluka
Manis senyum mu bak puteri
Bumi kenyalang yang menawan
Termimpi-mimpi ku mencari
Siapa si cantik rupawan.

Kau biarkan ku tersiksa
Menagih cintamu yang rahsia
Memberi makna segalanya
kau cantik tapi berbisa
Indah rupa mu tak terkata
Dek renungan sinar mata

okay so today was spent rather fruitfully.
I seriously mugged for science,baybeh:D
ah, i feel safer now.
3 more to go, 3 more to go.
I can do this, Ah huh Ah huh (:

Chatted with liyana
about hahaha how crescent influence us alot.
and we agreed on one point,deducing that:
1. people who are trying to get over eyecandyism are emokids.
2. people who managed to get over eyecandyim are confirmed,plus chop happy kids.

yo!, it's true man.
typical story lah, what to do.

k difrnt ppl have been appearing in my dream.
This is freakeh!
Even Fadilah that Ondehondeh also appear o.0"

Thanks for the memories
Eventhough they weren't so great.

i'm hooked to that song.

this is crap,i did shit.
ah,now i'm done.
aye,aku taknak la.
kebabai betol siak,tsk (!!!)

I need to rant.
But Not to Nasuha.
That woman will just say "merepek"
-.-" -.-"

[/editted]

Show me you care;

2007-05-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

So Tell me;
Can You read my mind?

Get over it,I have to anyway.
But it's hard.
It's just hard to let it go.

Enough said,this is heart-wrenching.

I am trying my best to move on with life.
Aiya,this is plain shit.
Might as well i dont post cos apparently my posts all sound emo.
whattheheck aje.
But it's hard.
Crap.

I'm trying to listen to the lyrics of imran ajmain's songs,yet again.
The lyrics are helping,but certain songs remind me of stuffs i'm supposed to get over with.

I know my world is like some make-believe world.
eh hahaha sometimes i feel like a foooool yknow.
Cos welllll,i'm dwelling over stuffs that i shouldnt have even make myself involve in the first place.
But aye,this is hard.
I'm trying to get over it.

okay,move on.
I think Adilah is funny.
When i say funny,i mean real funny.
Hilarious woman ah that one.
Whenever we sms each other,she'll type out sth that will make me completely lost over what she's trying to say.
Make me sound so slow in digressing your jokes only right,TSK!
Aye,but all's fine cos well,i'll always somehow end up bullying her.
:D:D:D
okay,i sound mean,but no i'm not okay.
And haha i shall make her perform for deeparaya concert.
Next year,next year!! Cos this year will be her o's.
HAHA,funnyfunny! (:

anyway,
haha i still dont know if i shld give up eyecandying.
people say i should,but i'm in a state of hesitant.

okay i am a happy kid.For this moment.
My phone's with me.and i'm smsing.
With someone who i havent seen for ages(!!!) (days,actually)
:DHEE<3!
(it's 340pm now)

and aye,guess what.
I met Rizal for a short while just now.
He told me Mommy got hospitalized. :O :O :O
(Note:Mommy is HIS mother)

roars,bye(:
HAHA,i just realise my post is contradicting.
Sekejap emo,sekejap enthu.
As quoted from iman,"Frust ah hidop!"
:O :< /: D:

eh haha i want kelas bahasa melayu lanjutan kembali berlangsung secara biasa.
Rindu ah itu kelas :D:D:D:D
which further reminds me of bahas,
SYAHIRAH SYG! YOK BAHAS:D
MINTAK CIKGU NAK?
AH, AKU TAK SABAR SEH <3

Sudah terbukti dirimu dia yang punya,

2007-05-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

I am still heartbroken like ohmygod okay.
But aye, i have to move on lah huh.
Cos ultimately, i wont be marrying you what.
So yelah heh, lupakan sahaja sudah.
Buat siak aje,aku buang mase tertunggu-tunggu untuk dier,tapi atlast putus asa.
Kan tak masok akal,ape sak.
Buat patah hati aje, aku yang rugi.Bukan dier.
(omg,how mat-ish can i sound?)
-.-"

my stupid damn fucking annoying sister is pissing me like some lunatic.
Leave me alone la damnit shit.
AH AKU GERAM.

and i want to cut my damnit hair.
father's objecting,aye why the hell la.
I'm just cutting right!
Bukannya aku nak jadi butch sey.wtheck only /:

Kanku kini putuskan jambatan hatiku padamu,

2007-05-02T06:59:00.000-07:00

school was as slackening as possible.
It's like hahaha we're slacking throughout the day like in the state of flux gitu seh.
But aye aye, i managed to do some revisions on urh literature and tiny weeny bit of mathematics.
Ah huh Ah huh, sense of accomplishment :D
Puas hati aku babe! x)

didnt have higher malay today,
cos wellll even cikgu isnt coming for lessons.
So yeap,went to the juniors class to ask sabrina out.

and oh,i'm supposed to see someone to talk to her abt some stuffs.
But oh well, we didnt meet cos of again,some stuffs.
So we sms-ed and i am so bloody fucking shocked of the news i thought was just some stupid thing playing in my head
When actually it's real.
And i am so heartbroken.

on hindside,i am still in love with bahasa melayu laaaaa.
LIKE YAY HEY.
BAHASA MELAYU GEREK TERLALU BANYAK.

anw,i feel like i wanna give up on eyecandying.
asdfghjkl.

You appeared in my dream,yet again.

2007-05-01T00:43:00.000-07:00

Mengapa bila tidak bertemu;
Aku jadi Rindu,
Bagaimana pula dengan dirimu.

Ah damn fucked up,
Gosh, i really should stop swearing nowadays heh.
So, i guess life’s kinda not screwed already.
Eh,wait! ‘cept for a few stuffs,to be exact.
But damnit manxz,I don’t give a shit out of it already.
Cos i managed to figure out that nothing i’ll do can change it.
So heck,buat bodoh sua.
(omg,unsur-unsur kemat-an) –grins at syahirah(:
Excuse the language there.

Okay so on Monday,
School as usual.
Guess what!
Hahaha fadhil,fadhil!
Tsk betul la.
Sya! Tak sangka heh,aku pro dan lovable sangat sampaikan adelah hamba allah tu terfikir-fikir pasal aku dan akhirnya menyebabkan diri sendiri terjatuh.
HAHAHA :D:D:D
Siaper ah,siaper ah! –nudgenudge.

AKU COOL,AKU TAU. ((:

Eh i feel like typing this whole post in malay.
Hahaha okay nvm,i shall refrain myself from doing that.

Stayed back at school till 330 around there with syahirah
And we talked about some stuffs, plus (hahaha) bahas.
Cool or cool?
Bahas is awesome okay,really.
I wanna bahas sometime soon.
But before that we need exposure first.
I had exposure,just that nak asahkan lagi ah.
Bile dah asah betul-betul sampai tajam,baru best kan!
Baru menjadi!
AH MELAYU TERLALU GEREK,
AKU CINTA MELAYU! :D

Okay anyway,Rizal sent me an email
A combined pictures of myself he took at his phone.
Hahaha,sorry dude.
Nasi dah jadi bubor.Heh.
But aye,we’re still friends alright.

:D

Love the language,

2007-04-30T06:39:00.000-07:00

I wrote Your name right there,
Now i wonder if should i erase it;
So lady tell me quick,
Should i do it;
We’re going nowhere,
I know very well this;

People told me,
“Get over her,dude”;
I ignored,(really ignored)
Cos i believed i’m doing good.

And now,I realize;
All this spells,
N-o-t-h-i-n-g.

Damn me,
I’ve lost my possession to you;
My Heart,Baby;My Heart.
Should i retrieve it;
Tell me,Should I.

Tidak pernahku ragu;
Dan selaluku ingat,
Kau datang dan pergi;
Oh begitu sahaja.

Kerlingan matamu;
Dan sentuhan hangatmu,
Kau hilang diri;
Begitu sahaja,
Oh betapa kejamnya;
Sehingga diriku merindu,
Sayang jangan seksaku;
Aku lemas di sini.

Dewi,dengarlah bicaraku
Setiap detik,setiap hadirmu
Oh mengertilah,
Debaran jantung tak terkira
Otak bergeliga tak terhenti
Mengapa Dewi,Mengapa Sayang
Tebarkanlah keharuman kasih
Yang selama ini aku ingini
Terbanglah ke mari,
Ke diriku.

Raut wajahmu,
Secantik sebintang filem layar perak
Alismu,
selentik taji dibentuk
Pipimu,
selicin pauh dilayang
Bibirmu,
semerah delima merekah

COOL KAN BAHASA! :D :D :D

Your Smile,

2007-04-29T02:51:00.000-07:00

Higher Malay exam turned out to be a killlerrrrrrrr /:
Wah,omg mati,mati (!!)
I think i managed to survive for peribahasa.
But for the cloze passage and the open ended compre,
urgghhhh, i think i screwed it.
I hate questions that are meant to make me squeeze my goddamn brains to get the answers.
So annoying like woah okay.

and oh, hahaha crescent giler nak mampos
rumours that are so not true got spread around.
Hahaha,syahirah dearest! if we know who starts it, we shall screw that person upside down okay!
Set ah setttttt ;D

and aye,nasuha told me sth abt pretty ec.
hahahahaha and i disturbed her abt that.
HEE:D
eh aku rase kejam sebab aku bully dier pasal bendetu.LOL!

On a lighter note,
went to JE to have our lunch first at macs.
Had lunch with nasuha and fadhil since syahirah has to go home first.

then nasuha went to toa payoh if im not wrong
Headed to library with syahirah and fadhil to study
But apparently something hindered syahirah from focusing to study.
Sorry la babe.
:D:D:D

went home.
rested.
and sms some ppl abt flowers.

Your Smile,

2007-04-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

Cos i'm borned to love you,

2007-04-26T06:19:00.000-07:00

Don’t scold me if I kept on doing life reflections nowadays.
I’m sorry, but uh huh I have been doing a lot of those.
I know my posts sound emo, but wth I don’t care.
My life’s crashing down, eversince the 14th.
Nasuha knows why. I never felt so handicapped before.
And guess what I reflected about today!
About the friends I have around me.
Tak cool langsung, aku tau /:

So I got all emotional again,
thinking about the friends I’m supposed to be really bonded with.
Heck, I know I’m out of the clique now.
At first, when I was aware of this, I was disappointed like fuck.
Damn I should really screw myself.
So much for hoping, so much for wanting
In the end, I lose all of it.
It’s just so contradicting to come to think about it
The name of the clique all started because of sth I did
That chocolate cracker, PILLOWS.
I wanted so much for us to be united.
But still in the end, i lose all of it.
Mind you, all of it.

Then, i told myself i should be strong.
Being cliqueless isn’t the end of the world.
So, i picked myself up.
And yes, i managed to live.
Atleast, to a certain extent that is.
Cos honestly,
Now again, i’m beginning to feel like a stupid,idiotic loser.
I’m like some reject person, some loner.
I hate this feeling cos it worsen my already low self-esteem.

I don’t know who the hell reads my blog.
Except for some people who of course i really appreciate.

So yes, that’s the thing that has been bothering me.
It bothers me a lot.
I can even think about it in the middle of math lesson.
Come on man, it’s too bottled up i swear.

On hindside,
I also am very blessed to meet these wonderful people.
Namely: Syahirah,Fadhil,Nasuha,Adilah,Atiq,Rez and Iman.

Syahirah,
I feel debted to you.
You’re always there for me.
HAHA,and do you know some ppl thought we’re attached.
Hahahaha,tak boleh angkat aku biler aku dgr pasal tu.
But we both know what we are for each other.
I’m so thankful to god for making us real close this year.
Whenever i’m with you, all my insecurities just went poof!
You’re a true friend indeed.
Thanks a lot babe, i <3! You times infinity (:

Fadhil,
Thanks for making me laugh.
I really need to laugh nowadays.
Frowning is killing me slowly.
Though your jokes are lame,
I still treasure you.
Love you lady :D

Nasuha,
I owe you a lot dudette.
Really,if i were to list all that down
It’ll take more than an hour for me to finish.
Do i need to say again?
You know what i want to say Kankan?
Dearest Nasuha, you know this.
I love you a lot, sampai tak terkira.
:D:D:D <3!

Adilah,
I don’t know if you read my blog or not
But oh wells, i’ll still say though.
You have always been there for me.
All those sms-es and calls,i appreciate them loads.
After consulting to you,i feel a whole lot better.
Really, i do.
I shall make sure we wont drift apart, no matter what.
You make a whole big difference in my mood.
And your advices really are all true.
You’re the bomb.
Love ah,love (:

Atiq,
Needless to say, i have alot to tell you too.
When i say a lot, i mean really alot.
But i guess i’ll cut it short and simple.
Your existence is too surreal.
Remember this? :D
Atiq love, your name spells all kinds of love
:D

Rez,
We’re good again.
I cant drift from you la,that’s the fact.
You and i both know this.
We know our tricks well.
Sayang kau jugak eh (:

Iman,
HAHA.sayang imannnnn.
No matter how hard you try to convince ppl ure pretty.
You are pretty actually.
Jangan kembang eh.
Okay dah, love you jutaan besar.

SYAHIRAH AKU NAK RANT!

2007-04-25T21:58:00.000-07:00

i need to rant.
everything's crashing,
Syahirah i need you to hear my rant
I need your opinion really
I've been keeping this issue in my heart for quite some time
it's too bottled up
I break down nowadays because of this.
I feel too demoralized.
Worst the fuck up thing is,
No one bothered.
Syahirah,quick i'm breaking down.
I need to rant,seriously.

I'm sorry that we're drifting,

2007-04-25T09:35:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IMRAN AJMAIN (!!!) :D

So, yesterday night was nothing much
Except for myself having my religious class exam.
ROAR. i am so dead cos i didnt know it was yesterday
But on hindside, the paper's quite easy.
So i guess it's a YAY situation. :D

Also, yesterday i sms-ed someone and yeah we talked about certain stuffs.
Then, I ranted to her about my problems telling her all about my life which is crashing down.
You're the bomb, really you are.
Thanks for hearing me out, though i know we're drifting.
And i'm very sorry that happens,i shall do something about that i promise.
You're too good to me till i cannot bear to drift away from you.
And yes, i shall be strong.

I shall edit this post later on.
Before that let me leave you with a quote of what she told me,which i find logic.
" Life is not crashing down on you,It's just taking a sharp turn"

school's screwed,i want memories back!

2007-04-23T21:38:00.001-07:00

i swear Ke__ sucha sucker,mean ass.
I dont want detention la bodoh.
I almost got okay, but thanks to L__ i didnt get.
Saviour ah,saviour. :D
I'm supposed to meet YO too.
Hell, face to face talk somemore.
Go and die man.
I am pissed.
That Geek and Bitch are ~~fuckers~~ i so swear.
/:

Berdua pasti lebih baik;

2007-04-23T18:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i wanted to go home with syahirah
But since she had science tutorial then yeah, nvm then.
So, i sms-ed sabrina azmi to go home with me.
Initially, i wanted her to follow me go macdonalds (?)
but she didnt want and suggested woodlands library instead.
Heh, i objected and we took sucha long time to decide where to go.
And finally, i decided to follow suit her new choice.
That is, to go to her house.

Planned to study there.
But ended up not, cos welllll my books are all at home.
So yeah, ate oreo cookies and yeah well looked at her doing her science theory wkbk
Gosh, how much i miss doing sec one stuffs. ROARRR.
and it started to rain. With flashes of lightnings, as wells as the rumbling of thunders.
Did i tell you that I am terribly scared of lightnings?
Well, i do and i just have to close my eyes when i see one.
And knowing my fear, that juniorrr kept on laughing at me.
Grr.

hahaha, i miss her la.
and sabrina selamat thought me and sabrina azmi went for a date -.-"

i havent been dating ppl eversince the 14th and also,eversince lrt friend and me quarelled.
Lrt friend, i miss all the stuffs we do together.
Really, i do. ):

But again, I'm not budging.I am a happy kid.
Okay maybe i'll do something.
But it will be slowly.

I AM A HAPPY KID!

2007-04-22T13:09:00.000-07:00

Sunday was yet another productive day.
aye, i feel extremely good for be abling to do revisions on math.
Seriously, i feel damn good yknow.
So yeap, didnt went out at all.
Though, i wanted to go out to purchase some stuffs.Heh

At night, I am a happy kid.
thank god i had the courage to sms You.
Enough said, I'm not budging. I am a happy kid :D
Thank you, You <3!

But then, mommy just had to spoil it by demanding for my phone went i was turning in.
This is pathetic. It annoys me so much.
Urgh.
Nevermind, i know i can get back my phone from her.
I got my ways.

Dont erase me,please

2007-04-21T05:48:00.001-07:00

Rasa dicuri oh hakmilikku;
Namun namamu telahpun ku ukir di tangan

Wellll,i guess saturday went quite well.
More of to a much productive day i guess.
Cos yeap,i managed to do some math revisions plus a little of science.
And uh huh,i feel a sense of accomplishment rushing down my being.HEE.
good day,i thought.
Well of course minus all the thoughts and break-downs.

Yesterday night,I broke down when about to turn in.
I know the reason why,and i'll tell certain people only.
It took me such a hard time to sleep.
I need your assurance.
But i dont see you online.
Dont erase me la.
Hell,This is damn fucked up.

Kays forget about that.
Anyway,fadilah found a nick for me.HEE.
i'm her flowergirl.
HEH HEH :D:D:D

anyway syahirah sayang,cheer up okay.
I'm sorry i couldnt finish up my convo with you just now.
My wireless just had to be such a bitch at that moment towards me.
Yeah,cheer up okay girl. LOVES.
and hey, can we like plan some study sessions together?
I need your help.

If not,then well,i'll turn to nasuha then.
:D

And oh,nita said i'm an emokid.
I dont know about that,but yeah perhaps.
I'm in a mess now.
Meaning to say,life's crashing down at my side here.
Damnit lah huh.

And,i'm still in search of a true friend.
This just plain suck.URGH.
Why does life has to be this way?
I want t try to get away,
but damn i know i cant /:

2007-04-20T05:17:00.000-07:00

Debar-debar si hati
Debar-debar juga si diri
Wahai insani dikasihi
aku telah jatuh hati
Benar-benar jatuh hati
Namamu dah pun tercatat di hati
Tiada mungkin boleh berganti arus lagi
Sayang,cubalah fahami
Hati ini telahpun dicuri
Diri ini berkata nama setiap hari
Nama dinda selalu berbunyi
maafkanlah diri ini jika menyiksa kasih
Hati diri perlu juga diluahi
Aku telah jatuh hati
Benar-benar jatuh hati

Hati terpatah

2007-04-20T00:44:00.000-07:00

I shouldnt have done that
I shouldnt have done that
I shouldnt have done that

ah shit, i got to know something and it's breaking me into pieces.
I never liked shocking news.
It'll give me such a strong impact till i couldnt concentrate in math class.
Hellll.

Damn shit, i.am.terribly.confused
takboleh imagine, You liking her ?

patah ah hati. ))):