Sunday, April 15, 2007

To summarized everything that happen for this weekend,
I just have to say that no other words can describe it other than the word ‘sucky’
Holy crap, everything went wrong.
I never thought this would happen.
But to my utmost shock,
It did, It just did.
And I swear I feel like a helpless little kid, struggling in the sea.
You know this kinda shitty feeling is making me insane.
Hell, I don’t even abit appreciate your honesty,
Cos in the first place, I don’t even regard you as a human now.
I rather call you a fucking beast you know.
You, being a sweet-talker, I really thought I could rely on you.
I really thought whenever you were there for me, it’s all real.
Your existence is too surreal, I swear upon god’s name.

You goddamnit know me too well that I cant take rejections on a light heart.
You goddamnit know that I cannot take lies, back stabbings light-heartedly
You goddamnit know that I have a fucking low self-esteem, don’t you?
You goddamnit know that I break down easily upon knowing bad things.

And instead of taking care of my little fragile heart, you stabbed it.
Baby, you stabbed it real hard that I can feel no blood is running thru my veins.
And I am too clueless to even bother why you’re doing this to me.

The best part is, I really wonder how you could complete your sentence
When you said “I can bet we’ll last longer than a year”
So, I guess after all, those are just pathetic words coming from a pathetic liar huh?
Even if this happened, I don’t expect the worst out of this.
Breaking up with two girls at the same time is just oh so pathetic to me.
Really, It is way far too pathetic.

Do you know that everyday single waking minute I used to pray,
That you will not run away.
Cause though i know I'm bad,
I just cannot let
You walk away from me.

Now, I don’t even want to fucking bother about whatever that has got to do with you.
You caused all these to happen.
You started this whole lie that I never thought you would play with.
I have too grieved a heart, to even believe I’m still surviving.
Cos by default, I would have already broken down.
But I’ve told myself I’ve got to be strong.
It’s never worth it to go all tearing for someone who never appreciated what I did.

Well, I shall mark this date.
14 April 2007, marks the end of the 5 month 9 days relationship.
Moron, you caused me to swear a lot.
May you pay the sins I got.
Period.




Crezawards on the other hand was sucha disappointment to be honest. Friday, the 13th HEH HEH ;D
Untitled artist deserved the champions title more than the SC Squared, I am so sure of that
Oh Wells.

Sat at the front seats (:
And I’m supposed to wear my suspenders
Didn’t wear it cos my friends said I look idiotic on it, wtf?
Have been feeding myself with coffee sweets all the while.

The highlight of the day is, Nurul and Gayle came.
Along with Paul twohill.
Mathilda’s supposed to come too, but she got last minute changes I believe?

-

Pretty eyecandy called me on the 14th .
Cheer up okay, nothing in this world is perfect.
Heard your rants, and I know youre not at wrong
Not even a tiny bit.
I’m not trying to be bias here, but oh well
May things clear up soon.
Just keep your cool, dear.
I’m sorry I didn’t really managed to cheer you up on the phone itself
Cos firstly, I had a bad day too.
Also, I can only manage to cheer you up if I see you eye to eye.
Voice to voice cheer ups never worked for me.
And again, I’m sorry for the misunderstanding you had of me.
I accidentally slept.
But yeah, you can count on me.
:D



And thank you lrt friend,
I still rmmbr what you say
Smile like you mean it.




Daddy’s pissing me off
I have to get my butt out of here now
Toodles.