I was bloghopping and damn girl,that post was for me wowza :O I got nothing to say,but please dont freaking assume wtvr that happened out of your intuition.Cause frankly speaking,your intuition sucks to the freaking core damnit.Yes,our friendship is going down the drain,but eff it man do you even realise all this happen eversince that soul appeared in our lives.I shld stop swearing rly man.
On hindside, texting the lovely babe has been making my everyday happy and gay.Thanks love!
Bila kita bersama Bila kita bersua
it's never really what it seems,
cause first we were chilling,
now I'm catching feelings
can you tell me what this means?
I'm going through my voicemail,
And I'm saving every message you sent
I'm trying to read between the lines,
to see if there was something I missed.
I really love your company,
Hate it when you gotta leave
another oppurtunity,
for me to say everything.
So tell me if i'm bugging,
when you look at me like that(like that).
I wanna say something,
but I dont know how you're gonna react.
Whats happening to me?Gahh.On the other hand,i purchased 2 pencils frm liy. For you,__<3! Hafiz's birthday is tmr.Egodude,egodude (hahaha)
Sec4s got no school on wednesday and thursday,how annoying.Tsk man,tsk! Shamita,please come down to school and bring H along too (: (hahaha) She admits,she'll miss me for the two days she wont be at school.Teehee,and of course i'll miss you too babe!
MATH TEST IS OH-MY-GOD(!!!!!!!!)
Tdy was a mentally-drained day for me.Spent half the day mugging for math common test.Had 5 lovely hours with pretty tutor (Idris,go away hahaha) Apart from the hectic day,i love the people who make me happy.Hazie's da best,da best,da best.Dont worry nasuha,you're still one of my top people(:
Anyway,national day rally speech by PM is good.Wah sey,incentives are prioritisely given for those who takes up malay special programme or chinese special programme.2 bonus points,mind you!
Oh,i bumped into lrt friend tdy(!) Omfg,i miss that bitch! And Gl Bby,stop apologising for the other day.I'm fine with it yeah.
Gdnight! I got better things to do,like mugging while stuffing myself with Twisties and texting the lovely person too<3!
I went for tuition ytd,and boy! it's so goooood .As usual,i <3! my pretty tutor! Da bomb,da bomb(!) She told me ghost stories of my school that happened during her time.Wah sey,hot stories! Maybe,just maybe i could snap my tutor's picture one fine day.Pretty pretty ex-crescentian ah puhlease.She could be my secret eyecandy.K joking ah nasuha hehehe :D
I've yet to text H,boohoooo ):
Oh did i mention that i can foresee my sister Shazana,will grow up into a pretty bitch? Hahaha.Any takers?Lol! Digressing from that,tomorrow's gonna be love<3!
GOODBYE.
I got you babe
I got you babe
I got you babe
I swear lessons tdy are quite a bore.I've been feeling fatigue the whole day.Irks me so much.My whole body system was basically down tdy,i felt really uncomfortable.Speaking of which,i think i got food poisoning cause my stomach has been giving me problems lately.I've been dashing in and out of toilet at home yesterday.Like i said,it's possible that i got food poisoning.I thought of not coming to school,but yep i still did cos well,some stuffs you see(: I miss seeing people -inserts suitable grin- If really it's food poisoning that's making me feel so sick,i gotta say this is the worst one throughout my whole life.Throbbing headache since just now morning,as though the world's twirling around me.Even Jing Yi says i looked pale and ill tdy.I feel so pathetic cause i cant seem to concentrate on anything(!!!)
On the other hand,life at home is good,beyond good.I'm delighted that mommy has been good to me.When i say good,i mean extremely good.She tells me stories of the schoolkids she taught. (I know i mentioned this before) She was telling me how corrupted this little boy she taught is.That little boy was so corrupted by the SPD show. (SPD's a sorta power ranger kinda show) The word power ranger relates much violence.Which explains and suggests that that boy is violent.Really violent.Pretty scary yknow,To make things worse,the parent thinks their child is always right.Bleargh,annoying people.
Digressing from that,I've got so many math related stuffs tomorrow omfg.Extra lessons after school,followed by math intensive tuition.*Dies*.
My headache's killing me,so goodbye!
Love lies, youre just a victim of the headlines
Youre running on into a cold night
Youre just a number of the love lies
As usual i texted H and told her the stories mommy told me.I said the kids were damn cute,and she replied she's cuter -.- Right babe,rrightttttt.Told ya already i got people close at heart with me.For now,Best is of course, H<3!
Ain't it funny how a broken heart just keeps hanging on,baby
You don't want to hurt me so you play along
And it don't feel right, and it don't feel wrong
You watched me walk away
And I set you free
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Yes,Baby it's true i'm over you.Oh,you were the one who didnt treat me right cause i would stay up at night just thinking when you come home and you didnt even make sure to call my phone.Baby,you made me bad.Oh Baby,you didnt know what you had.It's true i'm over you.I wont go back for anything you wanna do,Baby.Its done,you had enough of your fun.You better leave me alone cause i'm not gonna answer the phone.Oh,I'm over.S0 over, i'm wont go tripping for you cause Baby thats just isnt what i plan to do.Baby,I'm so over you.
On Hindside,I'm managing it.Thanks to the awesome company at msn and text.Namely:Gula Baby,Rez,Nam,Nasuha and yes,the lovely babe (: Alright,i hope i'll rmmbr to text H later before her O's.So long people,gotta run.
You got me feening and you got me feeling weak
Listen as I speak cos I'm careful as I creep
You got me going crazy and you know I can't sleep
No fortune your moves and you hypnotise me
You got me trembling like a little baby girl
You're so special, you're like diamonds and pearls
You got me spinning and you got me in a twirl
You're my number one baby, and you come to rock my world
Hotness psssssssst.
Psssst,darling,pssssssssst.
I found that somewhere.Freaking hot! Whip in the butt yoh!
Elearning's screwed.But i just love waking up late so it's okay! I know G block's like a haunted block hahaha.So silent,sec2s disappeared! And i know H misses me awwwww coolshit sak.
Can i put you in my tea? *winks*
Tdy went out pretty good i guess.Though i felt really tired but yep,day went rather well thank god.Spot Check was bullshit,Recess was spent eating and mugging for Science,Lessons were pretty slackening and laid back.Science Common Test was manageable yay hey hey.Headed down to CCAB to watch hockey semi-finals with Aliffah.Supposed to watch rugby semi-finals at Yishun JC but yeh change of mind.So anyway,cabbed there,met the rest.Crescent Hockey won.Ate with Nasuha at Mr Prata Shop and missed every part of the game,thanks ah woman.Saw Gula Baby,lollipops for her and Nam.Head back home.Cabbed again to redhill with Aliffah and Fadilah.
H couldn't come with me to watch the match. Sheesh darling,sheesh!
There's no school for me tmr and Wednesday.
Honey,do miss me cus I'll miss you <3!
Goodbye.
Will someone please say i got Sexyback with me?
<3! Hot Baby,Hot (!!!!!!!)
Went M'sia,got bubble gum for myself and Miss Scandal.
Say cheeese! (:
Hey back to you Gf,(yes,i'm not used to this too)
We drifted apart no doubt about that.Again,i'm truly sorry alright Honey.I'll try my best to make up all the times that we lost just cos we drifted.I seriously miss you no doubt about that.I miss the times when we hyperventilate at random stuffs.I miss the times when i go down your class just to meet and have a talk with you.I miss going to their match with you and yes,distracting you.I miss walking back to G block after every higher malay lesson.Oh god,do you know i miss you so much?We shouldnt have drifted.Why must things and people change?Sighs.I promise you we'll have an outing soon okay.Love you girlfie.Hugs and kisses<3!
On the other hand,thanks sugarpie and applepie(insidejoke) for tdy! (:
Hello World,I miss H alot.And ooh,Nice to know you,Gula Baby! ((:
Not fine,i hope.Cos,I'm not you see.
Say Honey,please date me.
I'll shower you lotsa kisses,promise.
So is it a deal Baby?
ROFL.I find the convo up there extremely mushy.I'm still laughing hoho! So anyway,forgive me cus i've been using name codings lately.I'm very prone to name codings you see.It seems so cool somehow to me.(TEEHEE)
I miss listening to Imran Ajmain's songs.
I miss playing the playground.
I miss watching Hi-5 and dancing to the songs.
I miss my primary school clique.
I miss waking up early,getting ready to go school.
I miss the gossip sessions with Iman and Fadhil.
I miss quarelling with Ahmad and Jamal.
I miss the times when Nasuha and me have a really nice talk.
I miss going to school,seeing bitches everywhere in the train.
I miss talking to Adilah very much.
I miss the scandal i had with LRT friend.
I miss going to school(4days holiday only)cos i want to see Hazie very badly.
I miss the good times i have with Baby.
Sighs,life's so complicated.
Srsly,i'd rather be at school now.I'm not surviving well enough at home,rotting yknow.The feeling sorta suck the hell outta me. I think She changed alot,wth is wrong with you babe.Get your facts right,i'm sorry to say this but i think you're really blind.What's so Wow about that soul.Really,i dont see anything so Wow about that soul.You're pretty,get yourself a better one.Dont retreat,dont ever really.I dont want to see you suffer at the end of the day.I dont want to see you regretting,yet again.I dont want you to go back to that old times.Tell yourself to look away from that soul.You have to,it's not your choice.Dont look for trouble when it isnt meant for you.I'm disappointed,prove me wrong will you?
I want school,school,school (!!!) I pretty much wanna meet my Scandy<3! ,plus friends of course. Ytd's night movie was nice,pretty sad actually.Scandy happened to be watching the same show as me.It ended at 1am yoh! Out of all texts ytd night,i find this very very amusing. (Points to the topmost bold words)
<3!
Mesranya berbicara
Hilang getar di dada
Saling terpesona
Namun tak bermakna ku cinta
Kau buat ku selesa
Wajah manis dan ceria
Kita saling teruja
Namun tak bermakna ku cinta
TEEEHEEEEEE.
National day celebration at school was alright.Very lively, no doubt about that.But i prefer last year's to this year's.I swear Red spells Hotsex.The whole auditorium looks so freaking hot. (Crescentians are hot hot hot creatures what! ahemahem) I saw H with her (ahem again,rather cute) hair! So anyway, my class wore our class jersey(ultimate hotstuff okay!) plus this white cloth which acts as a skirt,somewhat around there.Looks so pretty together<3! And yes,as expected we screamed our lungs and heads off like for almost everything.Teehee,i'm going to miss singing community songs with 2g3`07 yaww D:
After celebration,supposedly to have math remedial.But it got cancelled(!!!!) -grins widely- So,Filzah,Farah,Diyanah,Asyikin,Falee,Aru,Christina and myself went to cwp to eat pizza pizza hut hut.The queue was so long,i swear! Texted H as usual,and found out that she's also heading to cwp.How great! Ate this cheese-dont-know-what food.Yummy yum :D After i finished eating,I left the rest and met up with H and Sham.Hang out with them,talked talked and talked.Oh,i think H smacks very hard.Tsk,i'm such a poor thing haha.They showed me their pictures.They took quite alot of them man.After sometime,headed home with Sham.And she tricked me ohmygoodness! Unfair okay,unfair i tell you.Shh shhhh
I'll send loveletters from the Hallway of Heaven.
No flowers to send now 'cause this is the end;
This is the end now I've seen it all before
I havent talk to Fahmy for so long (!!)
Ooh H,ooh <3!
Sometimes your life isn't going too well.Sometimes it reads like a postcard from hell .I've made my mistakes, I suppose you can tell.Some lives read like a postcard,And some lives read like a book.I'll be happy if mine doesn't read like a joke, from an old Christmas cracker.
You've been around for such a long time now.Oh maybe I could leave you but I don't know how.And why should I be lonely every night when I can be with you.Oh yes you make it right.And I don't listen to the guys who say that you're bad for me and I should turn you away cos they don't know about us and they've never heard of love.
Love.Yucks,please?
I just tend to love this friend more.Jealous?
I'm Happy to see you again.I'm happy cos you're a girl's best friend.I love it when you get real close.But I don't smile so no-one knows,that I'm happy just to be next to you.And I love the way you do the things you do.And it doesn't have to be so hard to get happy when love's in charge.And I'm happy, I'm feeling really free.And I'm not satisfied with misery.I'm happy that you can make me smile.And I'm happy that you're there.Oh pretty please,I'm so happy.Cos H,You're so sweet plus lovely.How can i ever resist this? (Cheycheychey) I repeat,I said I'm H A P P P P Y.Believe me,no? ((((:
I swear H's the bomb now.Thanks for lifting my mood up.I owe you for that.
On a lighter note,i think my new friend is nice.Trisha's the name.
H,i feel like ranting to you about someone.Grr grr.
Today was a rather balanced day.Math test was bullshit,cos apparently i know i wont be able to score.Damnit.Lessons went on as usual 'cept for English.Had some serious class talk with JS.Wtvr she said,i haveta admit are all true.My heart sank on the spot.I could see JS disappointment through her eyes.I almost teared but i decided to hold it back.For all wrong that I did to You,I sincerely apologise.I'm so sorry,really.All of us were required to write our opinions of the whole situation at a piece of paper.I wrote quite a long one.And i have this very strong feeling that JS will cry after she read all 40 of it.Damn,this is so emotional.
Peacehaven equates to Love,enough said.
Crashed town after that with sarah,eugene and syikin.Had so much fun there.Mirror image Mirror image(!!) I love the company tdy(:
I didnt text H at school tdy and i heard that she complaint to Sham abt that.Sham even texted me, telling me to text H (hahaha) But apparently,Sham texted to my old number hawhaw.Aww so sad teeheee.H always make me feel so loved.Love that babe la sey.
H: Haha yeah going out of school.Why? What did you do? Klah,I miss you ah.
S: Chey H,baru satu hari tak text you,dah miss me.Mcm mane ni? Haha.
It has been long since i last had a proper talk with You.Yes,i miss you alot. (A girl btw).I'm glad we managed to talk yesterday.You know you have me anytime,any moment.Raise up your chin, my dear.And forget all those things you fear.For I am with you now and forever,to guide you in your life's endeavors.It tears my heart to know how you are now.If ever you need to talk,i'm always just a call away,not a problem.I'll always be there,promise.Just chin up asap!
I'm having this sappy paffy feeling yesterday as well as today.God,i've no idea how to phrase myself.Sometimes i really wonder,attacking my mind, asking why am i like this.I want to better,no doubt.School wise,i have one thing to face,and it's heavy.If i dont perform well for fye,i'll get kicked out.Fuck,i dont want this.Ergh,i love Crescent too much.The Crescent spirit keeps me alive each and every day.How am i supposed to fucking adapt to a new school.This is madness,i dont want to fail(!) My parents are being pessimistic of me.It dampens my spirit of striving hard.It agitates me so much,it tears me like hell.They're not supporting me,i feel like a really sore loser.
To cover this up,i tried to become more open to people.Tried to become more friendly.Cos i can never know if this will really be my last year.I seriously dont want to go.My one and a half or so year in Crescent has moulded me into a better person.I've experienced more rocky adventures in the course of life at Crescent.It taught me so much things.I've yet to experience the rest.
I dont like wtvr i'm feeling now.It just suck the hell out of me.Bee is out of reach,i'm extremely irritated.I guess i know who to go to when i'm down now(besides God,that is) Hah! i have such a nice life.Not bad,not bad /:
Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away Everybody I don't know what to say I wish I could take the pain away
Tag replies:
Adilah; Well yeah,life's just like that.Nice to see you at my tagboard(:
Idris; Mhmm youre very much welcomed.
Aliffah; Hello back to you!
IMAN; yeah i know she can uhh(:
Hafidz; haha yeah you linked me already yeap.