Monday, June 11, 2007

Bila hatiku sudah sayang;
Bukan mudah untukku lupakan.

Yesterday was bad,
the worst out of any incident this year.
I quarreled with Bestie,yes that guy.
(Don't ask who.For me to know,for you to find out)
I actually can bring alot of stuffs into this blog.
But i shall not,cos it involves someone's dignity inside.

I cried alot when we quarreled.
Cos we're quarreling over sth that shouldn't have happened.
I'm sorry,but I'm so sick and tired of giving in everytime and everything to ---
But yet,I'm still giving in.Why Oh Why!
I also dont get it why i'd rather see other ppl happy
than to make myself happy.
The feeling just suck the hell out of me.

The quarrel shouldn't have even happened.
Cos bestie's leaving.
And yesterday,
I was lying on my bed thinking hard about what happened.
And my aunt happened to come into my room silently
and she suddenly ask,"apasal muke cramp?ok tak?Macam frust aje"
I gave her a plain smile and denied.
So she went away with a nod in her head.

Then,later at night.
Mommy suddenly asked why I'm so different that night.
She asked if it's because of Rizal. (urgh,out of so many ppl HIM /:)
I gave her this kinda (-.-) look and said no.
So,what does this shows?
I'll let you be the judge.

Bestie,I hate you but i just cant hate you.
I love you and I hate you.
Cos loathe and lust work together.
I dont knw what to say,what to do.
Looking at the card thats meant for you just make me cry.
And the best part is,i cant bring myself to see you.
Hati saya telah dirobek-robek.

I've listened to so many malay songs lately.
And the ones that i listened to yesterday,
the lyrics are all talking about whats happening.
Urgh,get me out of this hell please.